SevenCubed - 4:04 am on Jan 27, 2013 (gmt 0)

Now here's a topic that I think many of us can relate to -- lost motivation.

I recently struggled with this myself. Just a few weeks ago I reached a point where I had to decide whether I wanted to continue in this internet development direction or go for another career change.

I had reached that point because I had to invest in better hosting to accommodate the additional websites I have under my wing. But I wasn't totally convinced I wanted to.

But, the primary reason wasn't because I'm loosing an interest in the challenge of discovering and learning new technology (and I've been learning daily since 1997). It's because I've grown weary of constantly having to struggle against the bias of big business domination. I know that same problem exists offline too but at least we managed to leave them behind for about 10 years while they had their eyes on the internet without yet fully committing to it.

But I feel now it's just like the offline world where they come in and squish everything. And, it doesn't appear to be getting any easier either. For me it's a daily struggle of wishing there would be more cooperation among those developing the internet instead of the current trend of a few wanting to own it while alienating everyone they grew up with.

For now I decided to stick with it rather than push all my clients off to shared hosting and hanging a gone fishing sign on my monitor. But I am definitely loosing motivation.

I'll stay with it for a while more to see if it gets any better. But if not, my next career move will be back to my first love -- a wilderness guide, and bush planes. At this point I can't think of anything more appealing than entertaining guests in the wild. I long to be sitting around a campfire at night telling tales, and struggling 30 minutes at a time during the day with 14 kilogram salmon on a fly rod :)

But I'm usually lurking around here on WW much of the day as I'm tied to my work. I typically shut it down around midnight, get up whenever I get up and back to work and back on here, always keeping my eyes open for an interesting topic.