hairycoo - 8:32 am on Jul 6, 2010 (gmt 0)
buckworks, thanks for those words of wisdom. Getting rid of the guilt is hard to do :(. I feel guilty that this is so easy and yet I don't work hard enough. I also feel guilty for thinking of allocating significant time to doing something non-profit when the sensible/responsible side of my brain tells me to keep working solidly on my current projects (which allow me to save a fair bit) as insurance in case they go belly up at some point (I'm not swimming in money and while I make a very comfortable living now, there's no guarantee that I will continue to do so say in 6 months' time). There's a war in my head between these two voices and no one is winning!
Second, our purpose from a genetic point of view is literally to have kids.
What if I don't want to have kids? Also, having kids to fill a void in my life sounds more of a fix than a real solution.
Which steps did you take since the last time you brought up this question? Did any of them bring you any satisfaction?
caribguy, I've done more thinking than doing since I first raised the question, unfortunately, but over the last few months I went on a career progression course which provided me with lots of food for thought and I've also realised that what I need to do first is realise/find what my purpose in life is and then find a project that is aligned to that purpose rather than try new things for the sake of trying something new!
I've recently also volunteered with a local social enterprise for 1 day a week but it's very early days and while I'm excited about it, it's going quite slow for various reasons and that affects any momentum that I feel at a given time (one of the benefits of working alone is that you can keep going if you're excited and don't have to wait for feedback from others).
All I want is to come back from work exhausted but happy and fulfilled!