I started using in 1999 and quickly moved to abuse.
My habit peaked in 2000 and it has never really abated.
My habit has cost me 100s of 1000s of dollars.
To feed my habit I've sometimes acted as a dealer. I made some 5 figure deals. This only reinforced the habit.
I have a lifetime supply, 1000s still. Am I rich or am I poor? I don't know. My perception is altered. Sometimes I wish I had a beer habit. Beer: You drink it, you feel good. You also feel good when you pee away your investment in beer, it's a relief. I don't get the same feeling when my domains are expiring.
I once was paying my pusher$70 for a domain fix. Now I pay $8.00 for a fix. I could even pay less. I don't know why I don't. I believe that my latest domain pusher likes me and is there to protect me...so I pay a little more.
I keep looking to see if I might score again. I buy Snaps. I pay to enter the Pool. I bid to be a Winner.
I've got a double addiction now: A domain addiction and an auction addiction. I keep telling myself "not today, no more". I haven't had a dry day in awhile.
I worry that I might accidently drop a score, so I keep "patting my pockets" to see if a score is about to fall out onto the pavement.
It's been painful at times to say "Wow, I scored some bad s#%% man. Let it go." I do. Feelings are mixed. Relief from release. Pain from admitting a failure. Dumbfounded when fools line up to devour the crumbs from my table. The circle is unbroken.
I'm ready to kick the habit but I hear there's some good money to be made, that the market is heating up. Then I score a big sale. Then another. Someone says "hey, you got some really good s### there". My mind gets foggy. Now .... I'm the pusher again and the money burns in my account. Do I score again?
I am a domain junkie and today is the first day of the rest of my life. Today I will not buy a domain.